Hi dear friends, I was asked a question in two of my previous job interviews. The quesion was "Did you have any conflict with your supervisor or colleagues in your previous jobs?" To be honest, I didn't answer this question well.

Well, I know the interviewer 's purpose of asking this question is to know how I react and deal with relationship with people and how I solve problems." I did have conflicts with my colleagues and supervisor in my previous jobs. But I really think I am a people person because I concern about people and my friends like me. Now I am pondering if it is contradictory that a people person has conflicts with people. If it's normal that a people person may have conflicts with people, how does s/he react and deal with the conflicts? These are the questions for you to think if you are reading this blog and I am looking forward to hearing your ideas/opinions. I need your help to grow and let us grow together!

I am back to my TIG home today--so excited! I haven't visited this web and added any posts in my blog for 3 years since my last visit in August 2004. Today, I tried to enter my profile and my blog and delightedly found it is still open to me. A sense of belonging aroused in my heart!

What did I do in last 3 years?

I have been working as teacher of Chinese until Feburary 2007. I lived a very simple life--going to work and back home. It was fun to some extent. I had a lot of opportunities to meet and talk to people from all over the world, get to know their culture and make friends with them. It was boring to some extent. Except for teaching, I didn't have opportunities to discover and develop other skills. I knew that wouldn't be my whole-life career. I knew there must be something else I could do and love to devote myself. Changing job or not was just a matter of time. I wasn't ready for the change emotionally though I was ready mentally.

During the time of staying at that job, I experienced an emotional turbulance and the biggest frustration in relationship. I was pursued by my student and later fell in love to him. I hoped to build a positive relationship with him and our relationship could grow to the point of marriage. However, later I found I was too naiive. He had difficulty in focusing on one woman and in making commitment to an exclusive relationship. That was completely not what I expected. Maybe I should not have had any expectations out of a relationship, so I wouldn't have been disappointed so much.

This frustrating relationship broke my dream of perfect relationship in my heart and had me question if there would be someone right for me in my life. My friends all said I am a nice woman and I deserve a nice man who really knows how to love a woman. But where is he? That's the question I've been asking for millions of times. I met a couple of men later and questioned at my heart, "Is he the right person for me?" After meeting a few times, we lost contact. The answer revealed itself. Frustrated!

However, I learnt to be patient with my life and myself. I don't look for relationship and I don't look for the answer to that question that I've been asking for millions of times. I told myself if there is someone for me, he will show up eventually in me life no matter where he is and will never leave me alone. He will be the answer to my question. If there is no one for me, don't be sad. There are a lot of things worth enjoying in life. Go to find something to do to make yourself happy. Therefore, I developed my interests. I learnt to play Chinese instrument, I learnt to make brownies and cookies and I tried to hang out more with friends. And finally, I felt I was ready to change my job.

I started my temporary job at the US Embassy. It was the happies work experience in my life. I was busy with work. I had opportunities to do a lot of different tasks. I had opportunities to work with English every day. I had a very friendly and supportive supervisor. I loved working there very much. Now my job there ended. I am looking for employment. I hope I can go back to work some day or I can find another job which I love and would like to devote myself.

I worked in the Embassy only for 5 months, but I met Dave. We didn't have any chance to hang out when he was in Beijing and we even didn't meet each other very often when we both worked in the Embassy. Now he is far, far from me, but we are keeping in touch. He is making efforts to build up a positive relationship with me. So do I with him. Both of us know there will be many possibilities, but both of us would like to give it a try. He asked me to keep a positive thinking, and I want to say to him, "I am trying, Dave."

I haven't been here for months.I've been busy with work and study.However I've never stopped thinking in a single moment...thinking about my future.I've been striving for and trying to get closer to the life pictured in my mind.

I love to keep my thoughts down actually, but sometimes I just felt it helpless to write.It won't change anything...Perhaps I'm destined to pursue my dream all my life but get no way to make it come true...

I am seeking an English-Chinese language exchange partner.American with good mastery of English and now is living in Beijing is preferred.American who is interested in language learning and would like to be language exchange partner is welcome to contact me at 13671294862.

When seeing someone else is entangled by and is striving for survival against those puzzles of life, you are sober and know clearly how to get extricated out of those snarls. However, when being ensnarled in the same situation you may be the very first who gets lost and bewildered by those perplexities of your life. ¡°Where¡¯s my last straw?¡± you may wonder. Sorry, I do not know¡ªlike you, I am searching for my last straw in vain¡­

We can talk about love in many different perspectives. I¡¯d like to post my thought about platonic love and sexual love here which has been brooded in my mind for long for people who happen to read this to develop a discussion.

No wonder that sexual love universally exists among all the creatures in the world, with which new generations are produced and the world are fraught with vitality. To me, human are the most advanced creatures in physicalness compared with all other creatures, but are not in spiritualness, because we have physical desire for love¡ªwe long for sexual pleasure, which I regard as animal-like behavior. Well, yeah, human in itself are animals no matter how advanced we are¡ªwe have the basically physical need for love to sustain our life.

I worship spirituality and have been regarding platonic love is sacred far beyond sexual love. If there¡¯s some day that human, with perfect physical features, could move up a notch and transcend physical desire for love to get perfect in spirituality as well, then platonic love would take place of sexual love and dominate the universe? This is a question I¡¯ve been pondering and hoping to get answer.

Also, if sexual love and platonic love are both what we need, shall we enjoy them at the same time? Then, what does fidelity or faithfulness mean? Does it require us to be totally faithful to only one partner both spiritually and sexually? Or be faithful respectively to two partners¡ªone we love sexually and the other spiritually? Or we just act all of this up to our own understanding?

Some questions are unanswerable and some confusion is unexplainable. But there should be possibility to give it some discussion which may help to disperse my bafflement about life.

I translated some English articles recently and have respectively contributed a couple of pieces of my translation to three magazines after several times of rectification and edition, hoping to be a published translator. The articles that attract me are not only written in beautiful English but are all characterized with enlightenment and are able to touch my heart in some way, for instance, some article tells us to re-balance our life and to achieve what is really important to us, some encourages us to embrace life with hope, some suggests us to give empathy by being a good listener and so forth.

No matter in what language those articles are produced, the wisdom they carry is boundless and can be shared by people everywhere. I love to share those good English writings I read with other people and let them be the beneficiary as I am and translation is the best way I could think of to fulfill this. Although what I am doing is only a small drip of water in the sea but I hope that could help to narrow cultural gap between nations and seed people with a belief that people everywhere are sharing those same wisdoms in a unique way.

Having met with J and idolizing him as my Mr. Right is something like looking for that man not particularly for me by knocking at the wrong door. No one should be blamed for the fact and I shouldn¡¯t be frustrated by the fact which I am not able to change at all but to learn to accept. It would be wise for me to recollect my courage to seek my right man and be ready to enjoy any love shines on me. Also, it is forgivable that even Cupid sometimes got wrong target to shoot an arrow. Even though I got wrong person to have fallen in love with, I should thank God for having me come across with J, for after all he lightens my life in some way.

I love poetry and love writing poems. I've written several in Chinese but never in English. Honestly, I never learnt how to write a poem in English but I would like to think this one as a poem produced in English for the first time.

I Wish

I wish
To be born as a bird,
In my next lifetime instead
Of being human,
So that I could,
Stretch my wings to fly,
To kiss the sky,
To play with the clouds and
To dance with the wind.

And I wish
There would be a hunter,
Aiming at me with a shooter,
To end up my life by
Shooting me down from the sky!

I always feel that I am so lucky to be introduced to TIG and have joined this community where I can express myself,voice my thoughts and feelings and have them read.Those comments about my updates are really helpful to me which broaden my horizen and provide me with fresh perspectives of looking at the world.